What do you use to give yourself comfort?
I used to go in my room and listen to my 160gb Ipod "My Precious". In it were many playlists of songs to fit a variety of crisis or emotions. I depended on this ipod to keep reality at bay. When I need spiritual up lifting I could turn to it for music, videos, or video podcasts from favorite pastors. When I wanted writing tips I turned to the podcasts. My Precious showed movies from animation to inspiration and thrillers. 400 to be exact. There were podcast, tv shows...God I can't even tell you all that was in it. For some reason this crappy computer wiped it clean. I am sick. I no longer want the thing. I can't trust it to do its job. I can not trust it to be the comfort I need at any given moment.
Earlier this morning I comforted myself with the thought that it may not have been meant to be mine. Just last week I watched my youngest as she sat miserable because she was afraid her Ipod was failing and I wished I could give her a new one for her birthday. Tomorrow is her 18th birthday, I have no money to buy her anything, and My Precious is damned well new. It will make her happy.
2 days ago