All I want to say is....what the flip in hell!.....Last Thursday I was finally feeling the joy in getting a daycare opened outside of the home. The rent($1100.00) for the building had been paid and all that had to be done was refurbishing, and licensing inspection ( won't mention the staff and clients). I don't know if I had said this, but the building was a previous daycare that had closed in July. Our target opening month was October. Well, on Friday last week my girls and I went to Houston so the eldest could buy her a car (she calls it Lola). Evacuation became a family reunion in Austin on Saturday-Monday then we returned to Houston.We arrive home to life as usual on Wednesday morning and I continued to do the paper work to get the center on the road. Yesterday, all deals were called off...what the flip in hell? The landlord lost his gourd and gave us the money back. I am confused. I have no idea what to even believe in anymore. Where am I supposed to be going? Doing? I was praying this would be the way to get out of the financial bind that is still chasing me and now I'm lost. I may be holding onto the Lord's hand but my feet are sliding on the slippery rocks underneath the turbulent waters and I am afraid. Usually, when I feel like I'm drowning I can cut the yard, change the center's furnishings around and gain some peace. This morning I went to work in the yard. It is not working. I must have really done something wrong in life to have everything continually falling apart. If I were a cry baby, I probably would cry. But what difference would it make? What the flip in hell. If I didn't know God could turn things around I would just give up. What the flip in hell. So, if I don't write in a few days...my mind is so confused I can't even think.
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